The story for this lately :
She hurt me well lately, she loves to blame me, accuse me, insult me. I'm angry, of course I always angry but always forgive. I had tried to persuade her to change for not being like that anymore. She ingnored me until this few day. Finally she has changged, but i feel that something different is changing too.
Now the opposite, I'm the one cruel to her...
my mind says :
I was become more sensitive. I'm become easily angry if she start doing bad things or mistakes, even it was a minor mistake.
I have been thinking, maybe I miss the time when I play with my friends. Now my time 24/7 is with her. Actually I love it and I will use to it someday, but i don't like it when you start to blame me again like what you ever did to me. Only a few hours when she left her cruelty.
But today :
I talked to her that we didn't need our regulations(we made it together) anymore. For not to look or talk with the opposite sex if there is no significant.
She refused.
I didn't care even she refused it. (Start from here I became a demon who hurt her)
I open my friend(girl) twitter profile. She was right beside me. Suddenly she's angry and tried to hurt herself. This not the first time she hurt herself. I've tried to stop her but actually didn't really care. How cruel am I. She cried and cried. After half and hour I managed to calm her and apologized. We have fun then till night.
I'll take her home, but she don't want. She said she want to stay with me(locatian at my room). I don't care, I'm forcing her. I know she was hurted badly.
I'm sorry, I love you jean X'(
